~ Ephemeral Visage ~

Tis the season....to graduate again. Attended convo 2007 yesterday to be pp's attendant/photographer(that's the grad bear I got him! Nice?) and got more than I'd expected. Saw many familiar faces that brought a spark of joy hitherto unexpected; Those of Rosie, Chinny, Jiali, Peiling, Alice, Apple, Weisheng, Steve...and a couple more peepz whose names escape me. My senior, whose name I shan't mention, won awards not shy in comparison to the valedictorian (hmm he was the backup valedictorian!) was in super high spirits, that one could attribute him as being simply intoxicated. Hmm. Because there was no extra tix to be balloted this time round, the group of us who has graduated last yr gathered at a table in the cafe, to prepare for mobilization for the phototaking frenzy after the ceremony. It was nice catching up, talking about everything and anything, yet nothing at all. It was just like the good old times, at rag, at the club room, and at the camps. Didn't realise...

"Stay" ~ Tonya Mitchell. I've must have been blind Not to see you look away from me Whenever you say You love me still I must have been crazy Not to see you slip away from me Day after day there's a space to fill and I can't find the words, to make you fall in love with me again and I can't find the strength to let you go And when it's all said and done, you'll be the only one Even if there's nothing left for us to say as sure as the sun will rise I can never say goodbye Even if we go our separate ways In my heart you'll always stay Been spending my time to try to remind you of our love But you're pulling away with every touch With all we've been though I'd never thought i'd be losing you and i would give everything to keep you here But I can't find the words to make you fall in love with me again and I can't find the strength to let you go And when it's all said and done, you'll be the only one Even if there...

Listening to -- Dreamcatcher, Secret Garden . ... I wonder if its the music that sets the mood, or the mood that triggers the choice of songs. Usually at the first signs of melancholy, I'll have the urge to put on Secret Garden and drift away. Whether it helps that I'm indulging myself in the depths of mellowness, it beats doing nothing to this current state of moodiness. Feeling low probably due to insufficient sleep: Slept around 6am this morning after returning from a wedding banquet followed by clubbing at dblo. But I was shortly awaken by a din from the family, arguing about the lack of commitment to study. At least that's what I caught, while desperately trying to re-hop onto the dreamwagon that was speeding further and further away from me. And then I woke up and left, like a doxy from a wharfs, not sure of it too myself why I chose to leave. Just as I stepped out, it rained, with the chirpy sun still smiling down at me. I borrowed a brolly and walked on. Trotting in...

Mounting the steps, I hope. The farther we climb, the harder we fall...if we slip. That was the chance I took, so full of confidence that everything would be alright. Because this one felt so right, I bundled only a few memories and jumped the wagon before It realised I was gone. And I never looked back, not even those quiet nights when I was left alone. I just lived life ever since that day. Yes, I never looked back, because my guts told me this was right, and it was what that would liberate me. It was literal when I told pp right from the start that he changed my world. Things are really different. Very different. But through yesterday, I regretfully realise that this new world of mine, is a contract held together with a sole clause -- Pp must be in it. Yesterday wasn't all that good. Maybe it was pms, maybe it was all the planning and stuff.... I don't know. But as the day wore on, my mood dipped to an ultra low. The tipping point came eventually, where both of us got upset...

Days. Having slightly more time to myself these days, much to the envy of many. I know my friends will pop their eyes when they hear that I'm actually doing housework voluntarily. But aint half bad actually. Took a while to figure out how to dance with the vacuum cleaner, cook, and I actually like mopping the floor because it's just like painting on a canvas. Driving is still going on, and I gave rei the driving mama's contact. Hope things go well for her too! Then soon we'll be driving out for suppers. With qy... and speaking of the ones graduating, I'm so happy for them! Qy if you're free enough to read this entry... do tell me when ur convo date is... I'll wrap you some pweety frowers~~~ Last night I lay in bed, thinking back about life, friends, and achievements. I'm glad I managed to accomplish so many things those years back. In a way I've led a fulfilling life, threefolds of many I know whose life has been just the way it is up right to now. I...

Before I begin updates on life these days, I'll like to first congratulate all honors students in the end of their thesis burden. Yay! Its finally over peepz. Go for your post-thesis celebration! Play! Catch up on those Zzs! Put eye packs on those eye bags! Ask me out! Anything! haha.... 1 x job well done. Started practical driving lessons proper, and things are progressing not bad. Soon I shall go check out the exam dates available and snag my licence before my birthday (refuse to renew my pdl). The instructress is pretty cool....she doesnt scold, kinda like a old encouraging mama. Anyone who wants her number for lessons, sms me. Pp landed a job with Amex, and I'm having my impt interview tml. Hope things are gg to turn out well. So fast it's been a year of playing and slacking with pp, right from the start of hectic msn-ing, to picking me up in his cute bike in sch. then late night suppers and panda eyes, family outings blah blah blah. woooh. I guess if time passes as fas...

Just finished watching Ugly Betty. I like the show, given my bias towards the cynism of the fashion industry all along. (Though its another cliched plot of how things turn miraculously towards a happy ending for ugly-girl-with-sincere-heart.) It brought a little warmth back into my heart.... knowing that sometimes good things really happen to those who are sincere/determined. Never mind the odds, but... im just happy to be able to raise an objection to my cynical side today. Went Bishan park today for the first time. It's a real big park, I don't know where it begins or ends. There is this dog park there, a plot of enclosed land of average size for dogs to interact and dog owners to sit and relax, watching their dogs run around proudly. Lots of bladers and cyclists. Great weather for kite flying too. After the walk at the park we went J8, and saw this Hahacrabs. They're just hermit crabs, fabulolized. My guess is these entrepreneurs went around catching some hermit crabs, p...