~ Ephemeral Visage ~

Some people you love But why do we fight? Some say... small fights bring people closer, some big events bond. But cracks appear each time there's a fight... and no matter what they all say, negativity takes root whether you choose to admit it or not, and manifests. Your relationship will never be the same again. I dunno how to put it, and most of u will probably think i'm just being too pessimistic, but when a first crack appears... you know you won't be able to emerge from the relationship at the end of time, hand in hand. Not exactly what you had in mind huh? Yeah, people will go "maybe it's not as bad as it seems", others will seek to fix the problem. Usually we all end up trying too hard... because they matter too much. Or maybe subconsciously we don't want to face another failure. But it all leads to a same ending. And the first crack's the sign. There wasn't any reason that prompted me to write these. Ok maybe there was. But I don't think...

Sometimes... Watching Prince and Froggy (Wang Zi bian Qing Wa) these days (I made that title translation up). The storyline's just like a manga, with memory loss, sweet sweet love, and good-looking male lead. I like the process of how they encounter obstacles manipulated by fate...because I like to see others experience the same helplessness I felt. But when they go into a stagnant lovey-dovey scenario, it gets boring and I switch channel. Well... it's part of plot development because you gotta understand how much they've been through n love each other before you can fully impact the effect of the loss later. I'm a scriptwriter.. believe me I know. Just that I have a choice not to see those impeccably boring parts; Why watch something to remind myself I can't feel that "awwww so sweet" feeling that a reasonable man on an omnibus, clapham would? (Source: Real Estate and investment Law module syllabus) At least... at the real sad parts I can manage to feel p...

The beginning of the End Crept a dream up my pillows last night... It showed me a crystalball... Of a possible future. 'Twas the day before my big day, my closer friends turned up for the final rehearsal at the cathedral. There I was, playing the fool and entertainer... cuz i keep forgetting where to stand or take the que to move. I've never been to a church wedding. So I dunno. The pastor was exasperated, my groom mildly amused, and of cuz my friends... cheeky and funny with smiles wreathed onto their faces. Though they laugh at me, I felt happy amongst their jibes and jeers. Finally with the rehearsal over, several closer girl friends and i went back to the hotel room where the next day's preparations were to be made. Think we drank a little, because my world was tipsy..we were laughing hard when they finally stumbled down the corridor towards home. I peeked next door at my family. Only my dad's in the room, watching tv. I told him I was going to school for something....

Bora Bora Islands This is probably one of my more colorful pictures ever posted. I feel happy when I think of this place. I wanna go borabora islands... got to know of this place some time ago when he sent me a picture of the palms from bora. Though he ripped the pic off national geographic page only cuz it was nice, I fell in love with the place immensely. Like an undeniable obsession, I started researching on the place, planning my own route because there doesn't seem to be any available in the regular travel agencies... And I discovered its not a trip for peepz who just want a relaxing retreat by the beach because to get to bora you gotta change flights then charter cruise/helicopter from the nearest airport. Activities there does not include lounging in ur hotel watching the sea, but action-boosted with snorkling, scuba, sailing, yatching, shopping, etc etc instead. Definitely not for the chillers. Which, therein... lies the challenge. I like. But of cuz... such a trip to the p...

Half-casted Shadows How can you falter, when stand you don't How do you stutter, when speech leaves you How do you cry, when tears don't fall How do you die... when you don't live at all. Au contrary to my usual feeling at arriving here, I'm feeling okay tonight. At peace, I would say, after a moderately busy day, a short outing, 2 hrs catching up on my Zs, a jumbled dinner of brocolli and fish, and finished part of my report. Not bad for a day. About the outing...It's true, that I don't feel that much anymore. For now its a good thing. At this extent, this point in time. It's pretty sad walking away today like many times I've done in the past. Slightly amused that i still feel that way, but glad that the degree of sadness has mellowed. Maybe indeed im stronger... or it may just be my cynism level has just leveled up. (shing!) But I sleep too much these days. At first I thought I was falling sick. But apparently not... *shrugs* just feel like closing my...