The truth is.... as I've realisd last night through a haunting conversation, that these few mths of content and founded security, were naught but a conjured and misled fantasy. I thought it's there finally -- the avenue of where I could say anything, show every different personality archetypes of me to, because of the bond between us. Yet after last night... I realised, all he wants, or don't want, is just the same as all others before him. Just perhaps not as directly obvious. Cuz he'd tried, at least. To take it in. But I guess it was just too much to ask for. And coupled with anger, it gave him the voice to put it plainly, and all I heard was his words merging with words from those before him, and the familiar shattering of so-close-to-reality dreams. As I close my eyes and cried myself to sleep, I heard wei's voice: "Has it ever occured to you that I don't want to know, nor be part of what happens in your life? So stop telling me about it. Tks." I...