Sometimes we get only one chance to say what we wish to. And many a times, it comes out wrong, especially for stuff that means much more. Despite knowing this, there's still a crushing feeling when you're at the receiving end where a part of you doubt that this is what he meant at face value; There may be factors contributing to why he's not saying what you think he might (really) mean. But then again you might just be a foolish optimist-- it's really so. He doesn't care that he hurts you, or he cares more not to hurt himself. Getting cynical I see. Withdrawal symptoms of missing a certain cute little platypus. We always hope that someone will be there for you when unforseen circumstances occur. Maybe just to bitch abt it, maybe go down to your side and lend you some comfort. Even hold you in their arms and tell you its alright. Today was one such day. Yeah call me insecure, but despite all the hardcore pai kia you see in me... I'm frail deep down, mayhaps even...
