~ Ephemeral Visage ~

Strange that it seemed, after so long, I've come to forget this place that I'd used to spend so many nights; Aligning the smallest details to perfection, sourcing the most evocative pictures, and handpicking only the best opensource codes for. It was through rei's livejournal, that I saw my bloglink. As I clicked on my name, a familar blue hue shrouded my screen. And flowers popped up. I could almost smell the scent of those white flowers. I peered at the last entry, a sense of guilt creeping onto me as I expected it to be ancient. But hey, to my surprise, it ain't THAT long ago... haha. Felt a little better. I can just dust off the cobwebs by blowing. *pff pff* Truth be told, I've been afraid to blog. I am afraid to face my feelings. To crystalize them into words, you first have to figure them out. And I'm afraid to even prep for that procedure. Yeah, indeed, I use such surgical terms simply because its like a surgery to me. Of me. It's like cutting myself ...

The Everyday. It didn't wait for us. It catches us unawares from time to time, especially during small talk with friends we haven't had time to meet up with for the longest period of time. Some reminiscences are easier than others; We giggle and tear at the fond memories when someone brings it up. Some others are more difficult, and we realise we'd chosen to forget by choice. And it is then you understand how much it(those memories) has affected you, even if you didn't feel it that time. It's been... 3 years and counting since the closure of our youth. When people around gets ahead of you, you start to wonder when you'll ever catch up. I see them married. Albums after albums put up on facebook. The one that truly got to me, was news that my little beautiful one was joining the bandwagon. I am thankful she invited me amongst so little others. Despite the difficult circumstance that brought upon the marriage, the upside was, she deserves to be happy. And I think h...