~ Ephemeral Visage ~

(Just) Some random mandoms Watched HOSTEL today, by Eli Roth and Quentin Tarantino, the latter whose gore skills i kinda developed an awe for after watching last season's CSI special finale. Hmmm... i would say it was a good movie, except the excessive nudity and the porn. I mean... we get the idea that the organisation used sex as lure to get tourists there but you didnt have to show it in so much detail. Like how the camera keeps having a couple carrying on at the back (no matter how blur or small the space is on screen), while having the pimp advertise the hostel to the victims. But at least on hindsight the sex scenes werent that bad... nor rude or put off. Yeah so... go watch it peepz. These days... go past without much memory, but the general feeling is there... and cant really be described. The closest word is probably "happy"... but i think i already used that in the previous entries. Haa... time to get more creative... but probably not at this hour when im tired...

Threads of Time Time... passes too quickly when you're enjoying yourself, and that's seems just the phenomenon whenever we're together. It used to be we see the night become day too often while we talk online, and then to on the phone. But nowadays, too many times we see the transition of day becoming night, while simply lounging around, or strolling the malls, and eating practically non stop. I don't say this enough, but... my world is beautiful, morphed by your love, moulded by your gentle yet firm ways, and delighted, by your indulgence. And yes, coloured, by your sa jiaos... hee hee... But just as we thought time passes ever so quickly, there comes the irony of this bliss only two weeks old. Put in that way, it seemed only so little time spent together, when it feels like so much longer, and more. Two weeks is the whole duration of most of our exams. Two weeks is the contract of working with Barney. And those two events flitted past so fast, it amazes me just how di...

A Toast... To life. So many things have happened in such a short while. Kinda need some time to settle down the excited heart.. slow down the pace of life; Yet I'm convinced, this lifestyle is healthy too on its own. Cuz I'm happy. It's true... they say..that its sweet. Haa.. the feeling of no longer being alone. Being whole, being happy. Being smiley, being me. Though this whole development being unconventional, and I kinda started out with trepidation, I'm happy we took the plunge. And things being the way they are, I'm almost too happy each day. It feels just like... a new blast of fresh air. Here's wishing all my dearest pals out there... remember the joys of yesterdays, and look forward to more, tomorrow.

On my way to school today, and heard this song on p10. Nice... :: Sometimes love just ain't enough:: I don't wanna lose you I don't wanna use you just to have sombody by my side And I don't wanna hate you I don't wanna take you But I don't wanna be the one to cry That don't really matter to anyone, anymore But like a fool I keep losing my place And I keep seeing you walk through that door But there's a danger in loving somebody too much And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust There's a reason why people don't stay where they are Baby sometimes love just ain't enough - I understand this well... because despite all the love i gave, they left, because of my untrusting heart, and... you cant blame them when they've simply ran out of patience on me. Nevertheles.... this wasnt the reason why i had a lousy day. There was no particular reason actually, but if you really want reasons, its prob the heat, the rain, the fact...

Smiles are still the most beautiful For those of you who know me, the fact that I'm putting photos of myself here signifies something is extremely out of place. Ha... I dont know why but these pictures bring a smile to my face-- maybe because I had fun when they were taken. I dunno what changed me, but I do feel that difference in myself. I felt that I've given up entirely, because somehow he's no longer, or worse still, was never the person I'd thought him to be. So... I'd been in love and holding on to nothing but an appariton. That also highlights my error in judgement, which I mulled over for a while, but eventually shrugged off because I really shouldn't have such high expectation of myself; Must accept that it's alright to make mistakes, and be less of the perfectionist libra. (kor its libra, not librian, nor librarian!) 5 More weeks to the end of the semester, I'm not afraid to know how the world views me. I'm a slacker, who's going to ...

Phenomenons, omens, and you hock and i were discussing some strange phenomenons and stuff, like the 11.11 pheno, me and ernie's ability to sense each other's moods at times when we're really depressed, and also my sensitized radar detection of people i love. Lets take the more recent events. Just that day at comp lab, i was surfing the net, somehow frustrated at why the stupid computer cannot read my flash drive, when i just felt like turning to my right. And from the corner of my eye, i saw him approach, intending to speak to me, but that intention was quelled by a friend sliding over for a chat. I truly wonder what made me turn to the right... was it the detection of his presence? And why is there such a phenomenon? Then there was the bus accident. I was on the bus watching tvmobile when smth just made me turn to look to my left suddenly. Though I didn't register what happened until the bus driver slammed on the brakes, I did see how the bus smashed in the poor Hyunda...

All those lies... Some from you, and some from me Why, must lies be a constitution For us to move forward. It's lies which eventually breaketh us too And Now... none for you, and none to me. Sometimes I wonder when did it all start. Looking back it has been almost 4 days, but it seemed more like a whole 2 weeks altogether. The hurt has mellowed, i'm able to tell laoban and others who noticed my constituency that things are kinda fine now. Pretty thankful that workload was busy enough to prevent me from being swallowed by thoughts. This fall... is one of my own. But having said that, it doesnt cushion me against the fact that.. fen shou ni bu zai hu. Every girl hopes to be of some value to people around her you know? Sigh. watever.