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幸好的是，没有你，还有人陪我玩烟花... :) 祝我生日快乐。
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Muttering to the dark room
On days I can, I try to make my friends happy. On days when I'm totally swallowed by darkness, I hide, and I think, will making others happy n good deeds help return u? But of course I am absolutely clear that I'm not doing things so far out of that reason... I'm just doing what I can for those who need smth more than I at that time.... Please lord. U know what I'll pray for every night... Please...
Hurricane Da
Another wedding tml...marrying off my good fren Da.... Dunno how long it will take to recover this time. Don't feel like sleeping but have to take the pills. The feeling of not attending tml grows ever stronger by the minute. Sigh. I miss u dear. 6846543
Severance
Misery. Why do I upset myself so? But it feels like the right thing to do. So I'm sad and relieved simultaneously? Wei...My pride knelt down in front of him, giving him an honest confession aka compliment. And gratitude for being able to cry in front of him. From this day thus, we don't owe each other anything. And I don't Hope for anything to come out of my confession tonight... I don't want to hurt or inconvenient anyone anymore. I feel I have just thrown away the key to his house. Tho I never had one. Haha. Him... The hurt is to my pride, not the heart. I have no love for him. Cleaner... Too many good memories, it hurts to draw that line between us. But it's the only thing to do now. Wat we have now isn't going anywhere. N I really dislike it when he shuns me. I think i scared him with my mania episodes. However politely he refused my suggestions to go anywhere, I can feel from his responses that he doesn't want to come any closer to me. So not to inc...
White lace again
Once in a while... Every girl dreams of putting on a pretty white gown adorned with pearls and diamonds... It started in sec 2 when kitty and I walked past a bridal shop and we flipped the album by their door to admire the photography. Not the gowns or 'blissful' feeling of marriage. I heard the evil voice loudest that time... 'you're never going there.' I didn't want to believe it, but one rs after another, this feeling at the back my head grows more solid each day. Today I received hock's wedding invite. It's the most beautiful one I've seen by far. Great job hock and sq. This is the 2nd close dance fren's wedding. Each time my close fren gets married, I feel like I'm marrying off a daughter. I feel emotional. To me, they are like my children. I have always strived to be there for them. Create events for them to play and grow together. And now they are in better hands I am happy to let them go, but at the same time recognizing they will...
September
This is my favorite blue month. Blue like the dark sapphire. People I treasure share this mth with me as their birthdays. September has always been special. I wish to keep it this way. So fast there's onli one more week lest of this beautiful month..and I still have not decided what to do for my bd. if dear dear was still here I wld have bugged him to go legoland. Everywhere else I think of I see his shadow. I hate him for the condition he brought on me. I can never be normal again. Not even pretend now. Because there's too many tell-take symptoms. I hate him for not calling or msging at least once to see if I'm ok during this period. Coward. Heartless piece of shit. I hope you like the image u see when u stand beside the crap u chose from the scrapyard. u deserve better than that. And so do I. Do me a favorite and get a better girl. Tho I curse u every morning when I wake, I pray for u before I sleep. I pray I shake off the pixie powder blinding ur vision n see who she...