~ Ephemeral Visage ~

A New Year entry This lunar new year is a first for many things -- First year I didn't go visit any relatives (and my parents actually didn't make a fuss!), first year pp and his family is spending it here, first year there was nothing interesting to watch on tv, and first time I didn't invite any friends over nor go to their houses. I guess times are changing, and my parents have finally given up on whether the relatives see me or not. I think they know how much I dread these fake masquarades of blessings...and I really rather forgo the angpaos than to see and smile to them and the tv. So yay, albeit feeling a little lonely, I do feel a great sigh of relief this new year. Finally have some time of my own. Nice start to a new year, I think. =D I blame the slight loneliness on the tv programmes, or lack of it, this year (i have almost 50 channels on cable and they have nth to watch from 2 to 6!? I find that a little too incredible). It might also be that since pp is spendin...

Reading into the future . It's the beginning of a brand new term, and challenges loom perilously ahead. Gotta be on my toes constantly so as not to get caught offguard by these rabbitholes. Though the general plan is to work this line for 3 years thereabout and scoot off, I still wish to maintain a good working relationship while I'm there. I've been wondering what'll go on after the 3 years. I guess its easy to picture myself coming home from work, cook myself a meal, watch tv, surf net, make some calls or finish up some work on the laptop, then pop off to bed. Then in the middle of the night, pp will come home from either work or his nights out with friends/colleagues... I'll wake up for a while to see that he's settled in, ask what time to wake him tml, back to bed. I think it's inevitable that at certain parts of the daily routine its gonna get lonely and quiet at home, for instance coming home to an empty house, and eating dinner relatively alone. But t...