~ Ephemeral Visage ~

He's coming back Spoke on the phone with jeff today... and he mentioned ick's coming back soon. "Really? I thought it's June or July?" "Haha but in comparison it's soon enough." Yeah... it's soon enough indeed. Sometimes you really need a total distance between u and someone, and let things happen on their own. Separately. Then you'll be able to see many things with a refreshed perspective. I'm sure that's what he's seeing now too. A new perspective. He's a harsh critic of my life. Don't think I expect any less from him.

Watching 'Life of the Saints'... and I feel the irony behind the words. Life.... is truly unfair. But you just gotta live with it. Sometimes you give too much... only to realise it's unfair the way people just take it for granted how you stood there for them, take care of them. And when they feel its time to move on... they thank you before you part. You did not matter to them, as much as they did to you. Each of us have our own dark secrets. It's not how well you keep your secrets, but how well you deal with them. The ability to judge whether it is best to keep them buried, or reveal it to be truthful, is what differentiates us all. Will you guard yours till your grave? Or will you break under pressure? Violent reactions, tears, blood and shame... They come... but they're the truth.. afterall. And once again, each of us have our own dedicated endings... who knows you may get forgiven, who knows you'll lose your mind. Hate... does a whole lot in screwing us up. ...

Aimless thoughts under the cloudless sky Anyone ever caught yourself smiling at the clouds? Perhaps you simply didn't look up enough. Ever wondered how it looks like from the clouds' point of view? Looking down at the puny earthlings, meadowful of flowers they've watered for centuries. Anyone ever caught yourself reminiscing the past? Maybe you didn't look back oft enough. Ever wondered how those whom you've left behind are doing? Found new friends, improved social status, the very things you didn't get to see through with them. Just that day kitty and I were discussing after a tiring day of shopping, about this friend of ours. She expressed her surprise at the turnout. She'd expected the girl to be me. My response was a simple shrug... something inside me probably agrees. But then again, I cannot imagine that happening. To be honest, there was a period of time where something in me responded to him. But it has always been shrugged off because I value our fr...