~ Ephemeral Visage ~

Along the eternal winter in you a gust of something else still cuts through something faintly resembling one who cared i knew you would never change and the way you said goodbye could make the falling leaves stop dead right in their tracks when rigor mortis has set in i'll know you are finally at peace within and you have to believe me when i say i envy you the remora needs someone else to be and the opiates have taken to me but the thing that i just could not take was you

When I see coffee, I think of a friend. I've never seen anyone drink sooo much coffee... Knowing the doses he heaped on himself is deadly. So here's to him. Don't die before me yeah? Happy Birthday!!! --- hugs and kisses, dory. An ode oh the black bittersweetness with or without you i'm helpless your soul darker than midnight even when seen in light nothing mixed, nothing drained as you settle, my heart in pain but i wait, patiently i wait till you tell me, no longer wait sometimes you're corrupted looking so erupted 'times you're soul's lighter but still i taste bitter i revere you in wholeness i grasp you in all holiness i bring your lips to mine your taste... so fine my lips, escape a moan i quiver, shiver, i groan as i draw your life to me my pulse quickens, clearer i see oh, i need another cup of coffee...

My occupation's an actress, Life's my stage. Each morning I wake up, don on my costumes, step out of my sanctuary, and my work begins. Smiles in the lift, conversations in school, depressive moments... they're all part of my script. I love my job. I can be a mixture of anyone, anyhow. I act. I'm not shy, or is that only an act? I love to dance, I can be the daring tango samba, or saucy courtesan. I seduce, stroke, savour... Audiences hot at the collar. It's a sin to manipulate people Make them think I'm me. Maybe guilt should get to me, Until then, I'm free. I'm arrogant, no doubt, Lucifer's own product. Take a hint, poor souls, There may be more to what I hold. I'm giving you a choice... A little lenience from me, Either flee, or tread very carefully.

I realise... it was real stupid of me to feel the stuff I did these past few months. Who am I fooling? I'm only finding someone else I can cling on to, so as to convince myself to climb out of the hole I've been in for so long. I accidentally opened a mail from jt dated 2000... I couldn't believe it was that long ago we were in love. The message was so damn sweet...it shocked me. He looks the same, sounds the same, but he's not him. I feel the despair one feels when your loved one passes away. He is really dead. Someone else took his body. I have gone with him.

Post-Valentine's Day Woke up strapped with lethargy. The malls bursting from crowds Streets full of cars Clouds dark with anger Thunder rumbles fierce. Mood dank like drainwater Thoughts running on treadmill Eyes cold with arrogance Patience sucked nil. Bears ensconed in wrappers Flowers bundled with frills Mayhem left from vday sales Discount signs galore. Lips quirking with a smirk Not gloating's a chore. BGR's a disease I wanna live summore. Mind saturated with evil Hair strewn by the wind Feet found their rhythm Lone-ing's not a sin.

Valentine's Day A second consecutive vday spent with thong... But this time there's kitty as well. REI..~why lydat...it would have been fun to have all of us talking together... Can't help reminiscing last year's adventure with thong >>puppy-hunting at pasir ris pet farm, without knowledge of where it is, how to get there etc, except that such a cluster of pet shop exists. So after scouting out SPCA we went popular research street directory and bus guide to the nearest bus stop to Pasir Ris Pet Farm Lane1 and 2, trekked another 2km to reach the pet farm...The sight of the puppies were rewarding, the amiable reception of the salespersons were worth the trip under the hot sun and risk-taking. =) I remember feeling so proud of myself for finding the locations from scratch. It's a big affirmation of my research skills. This year ain't lack of adventure either...we had fun doing what we set out to. In fact it went better than I expected. Went for...