~ Ephemeral Visage ~

Happy Birthday to me!!! Thank you you guys who have remembers my birthday... You deserve to be mentioned~ Thanks.. Chuanz, Huixiang, huishi, Vincent, Professor, Meow, Desmond, Ernie Qiaoyanz, Jinglin, Jeffery, Yanmei, Grandoter, Brother(liyangz), Weizhong, Yuanz, HuiQi, Rabbit, Huifang, Wendy, Emily, Liz, Jasmine. Happy Birthday to my brother liyangz!!!! Thank you for sharing the same birth day, you don't know how honoured I am To have a brother like you... =) Lastly...pirates of the carribean was nice... thanks bra and straps for accompanying me to watch it... luv you guys to bits... *yeah*

Yesterday I had fun... He came, and I guess that's the best birthday present I received so far. Because 1. it's my birthday celebration... and 2. I don't need to pester our mutual friends to pass him his birthday present. Though he didn't talk much to me, but alot to others, I guess having him around was enough. Hearing him laugh is even more than I'd asked for... that is if you don't consider the negative stuff in the following paragraphs... Just before he'd decided to leave, I gave him his present. I think he was surprised(he seldom shows any signs of shock) at it's size... that the "thank you" only came a few seconds later. Then he placed it at the door together with his bag and waited for me and orluar to go also(the rest stayed over for mahjong), but then they brought out the surprise cake so our departure was delayed. Then when everything was over, he happily took his bag and walked out of the door...........

Tonight they held a birthday party for me, In conjunction with caichang's enlistment into NS. Present were Jerry, Hongda, Orluar, Desmond, Chengyao, Weiwei, Xiaohao, Ernest, Caichang, and Seok. We had fun...and they took out the surprise cake just when I was about to leave They were short of one candle, so they took the breadstick on the cake as substitute. A thought suddenly passed my mind as I was counting the candles: I am now a much stronger person than I was the last time there were 18 candles on my birthday cake(thank you again grandoter and mit). The difference of one candle actually makes so much difference... I thought I did well for the evening until they started lighting the candles... Memories of the lost-ness I felt during last year's birthday brought me close to tears--- --The waiting for at least an sms from him, the birthday wish that hasn't come true so far, And the way he took his bd present from me without even looking at me... Bu...

I used to have 2 very close friends/seniors. We used to hold events together, successful gatherings that got rewarding feedbacks. The 3 of us ruled ds... made it frying with life. Until one chose his poly life over us, and the other moved on to a girl who makes him miserable through her words and self-centred attributes. He became irresponsible, undependable, unreliable. For him, it's only her. There's no place for me, this old friend who's stood by him Time and again when she stabbed him in many ways I can't be bothered to remember. Even though he's tried to remedy it now that he's supposedly ended their relationship, The drift between us is inrepairable, and it's not because I haven't tried. I can't say I despise him. But that feeling's close. Those times when I approached you for help, but you blatantly refused. Times when you said you'll do something but didn't, and offered silence as your answer. I won'...

I wonder which one is truly me, The one who smiles, and says those warm concerns, Or the one who stares out of the bus windows with cold hard eyes. So far I've found someone who accepts both these two faces of mine In fact he's been around for a long long time, Just that I only realised he's been a form of my strength support recently. I seriously hope that he'll find his freedom from regrets, in order to find happiness. For those who watched "Qian Nu You Hun", there's this part Where Qiye tells XiaoQian he loves her, But she quotes "when two people know each other for a very long time, The feelings for each other eventually evolves to a brotherly love, then to Love. But it might not be at the same pace." Love might have arrived for Qiye but XiaoQian's feelings for him is still at brotherly love, And by proclaiming his love for her at this point he's capped the possibility of Xiaoqian's feeling evolving to Love. ...

I guess by now the whole world should have watched Turn Left, Turn Right So you'll probably understand what I'm trying to say... They say there's a possibility that even 2 parallel lines may meet That I do not counter, because you'll never know what cunning Fate's up to Strange that they always address the latter as Lady Fate, Is it thus that women are generally more conniving? =) Ok I shan't digress... They ask me not to lose hope, because if even parallel lines may meet, One day we may just reconcile. But after pondering over it... It struck me that he and I aren't parallel but perpendicular lines instead, Where after our paths have crossed, from the starting point of intersection, we now branch out oppositely in a 90degrees angle. Outwards. Hence possibility of 2 outward perpendicular lines ever meeting... Is virtually none. Or even if there is, it's kazillion times more minute than parallel ones. But thanks anyway, for the e...

A dry breeze is blowing The city is getting cold I wonder how many seasons have passed without even a sound? All of the people coming and going bear heavy burdens, searching for tomorrow within the heat haze wavering in the distance. Feelings like sand falling through my hands... Back then, the words that pierced my heart suddenly started to throb with pain, but... I've searched for pieces of myself, counting the endless nights all the while. These feelings are becoming so certain I almost lose myself. Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, However far. I wonder, why is the sky so vast? Even though I tried to yell, my voice didn't come and the tears poured out. I wonder where the birds are flying off to, as they slice freely through the wind? One can't return to the same place as it once was in days gone by. Even if I give up my dream like this, I won't suppress my soaring heart. Someday, I want to reach as high as the clo...